gourie: we all did read your blog and believe me we all DO feel the same way about him. but how can you discourage yourself like that? at the start of training today he called out hwee, shaofang, sophia, steffi, phoebe and pinky. and i was feeling so horribly left out- last week i wasn't playing at all well so i guess he doesn't think i'm good and all that because it was quite obvious that all the people he chose then were those he thought good. So i felt absolutely terrible and all that. then you and viv called me and lizard over so i was kinda comforted about the fact that you 3 didn't get chosen as well- and it's not that we're not good. we're good, just not good enough for that bastard's standard. you shouldn't hate tennis. you only hate tennis because of him and you know that very well. and you don't hate arik and you don't hate qing. you don't hate mr ang- you just hate the square one. and i have to say, who doesn't? so just forget about him, and show him at the end that you ARE up to his standard. i'm not telling you you suck right now because the gospel truth is you DON'T. you don't suck and i'm not just saying that to cheer you up, it's the truth. why then do you think that we always encourage you when you think that you're not good enough for him? why should you care about what he thinks, even if you getting into the team comes down to him in the end? forget about you hating tennis- train hard and show him that you CAN play.

woah what a novel.